Well, babe, we had our weekend together.
Our first full weekend spent just together;
Just the two of us crawling into bed at night,
Just the two of us waking up in each others’ arms in the morning.
I’d say it was pretty perfect, in my book anyway.
Relaxing, cuddling, kissing, etc.
I honestly could not have asked for a better weekend with you.
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I left 3 hours ago to come back to school, and I miss you so much already.
You gave me your sweatshirt to take with me,
And I have a feeling it is going to be a large part of my wardrobe for quite some time.
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Anything to remind me of you <3
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In about two weeks I will be home for my birthday, and you’ll take me on a birthday date.
After that it’s only 8 days until I’m home for the summer.
A total of 11 days until I see you again, and about 21 until I’m home for months.
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I can’t wait.
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I can’t wait to see you again, though right now all I have to do is close my eyes.
I can’t wait until we can be together whenever we want to, not just via text messaging.
You don’t know how much you mean to me right now.
I’m moving into this a lot faster than I ever expected to.
I told you a few days ago that I’m falling for you.
Well I don’t know if thats completely true.
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I think I’ve already completely fallen.
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When I’m with you, I’m happy.
When I’m thinking about you, I’m happy.
This weekend I found myself looking at you so often.
Just staring at your face.
I wanted to really take it all in.
I knew it would go by fast and then I’d have to wait a while to see you again.
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So I just stared.
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I watched your eyes as you were engulfed in the movie,
I saw them smile at your favorite parts.
I watched your mouth as you talked to me,
And as you talked to Jess,
And as you talked just to talk, no real recipient in mind.
I noticed the smirk when you thought you were being funny,
Or when you knew you were saying something that Jess would react negatively to.
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I watched you move.
I watched your hands.
I noticed the way you sat at the table to eat breakfast with me.
Coffee in one hand, leaning back, like you were so comfortable there.
Like this was our life;
You, sitting at the end of the table,
Me, sitting next to you;
Sharing a meal to begin our day.
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I watched you smile at me.
Sometimes because I said something stupid
(and, trust me, I don’t blame you for laughing).
Sometimes because you were proud that the things you say and do were rubbing off on me, and Jess had pointed out I was doing them too.
Sometimes because you just caught me looking.
And every time you caught me, you just kissed my forehead.
Simple as that.
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Those moments are my favorite.
The ones where you look at me like I’m the only person around.
Like I’m the only thing that matters in that moment.
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Like when we were watching the hockey game on Saturday.
In the middle of the game,
Not during a commercial break,
Not during an intermission,
In the middle of your favorite team playing your favorite sport,
You looked me straight in the eye and said,
“You are so beautiful.”
And then you pulled me close and kissed me.
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That was the greatest moment I’ve had in so long.
But its hard to even say that because every moment with you is so wonderful.
Everything you say to me, and every time you do something like that,
You make me feel beautiful.
You make me feel like I’m so special.
You make me feel like I matter.
When you hold the back of my head and you just kiss me.
Or when you tell me you like me,
Or when you just hold me for a minute,
And look at me.
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I don’t even know what to say to you sometimes.
Because I want to just go on and on about how I feel, but I don’t want to scare you.
But the truth is that I have so many feelings towards you.
My heart beats faster around you.
I’ve often wanted to show you that,
Tell you to rest your ear on my chest and just listen to how loud and fast my heart is beating.
Then tell you to kiss me,
And listen again.
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You would notice the change,
It’s dramatic.
But I don’t know if you’d really appreciate it in the moments when I think of it.
So I never tell you to.
But try it sometime, if you ever read this.
It’s impressive how much you can alter my body’s natural rhythm.
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I also want you to know this:
I could spend forever in your arms,
Eternity with my head resting on your chest.
I feel connected to you when I do this.
I feel like nothing can be bad when I’m with you like this.
Nothing can go wrong when we’re so close,
I feel safe.
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I feel so much for you.
I care about you more than you know.
I have fallen for you so hard, and I’m not sure you have any idea of the severity.
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I hope you’re right about how long we’ll be together.
I hope you choose you want that.
I hope we can officially start this relationship soon.
I hope your feelings for me don’t go away as you learn more about me.
I hope I can be everything you want and more.
Most of all,
I hope we get more time like this weekend.
Because I don’t even want to sleep tonight without you by my side.
And I’m dreading waking up in the morning without your face being the first thing I see.
And the way we worked as a couple this weekend,
Alone,
Running our own lives together,
Well, we were pretty good at it,
And we’ll only get better.
I hope we get that experience again.
I loved being there with you.
I loved having you by my side.
I was home,
And not because of the place,
Because of you.
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Oh,
And, darling,
You are a damn good cook :)
