Well you’ve officially met the entire entourage that is my family. I’ll reblog my posts about the initial day you met my parents later, but right now I just want to write a bit about how thankful I am for you.
I know this is long overdue, you met my parents on cinco de mayo, and my grandparents and sister & brother-in-law on my birthday, May 6th.
They loved you baby.
They think you’re wonderful, and you are.
You’ve made a great impression on everyone in my life.
I knew you would, because you’re everything wonderful that I have always been looking for.
Which leads me to the next thing I wanted to tell you:
I love you.
This is the first time I’m admitting it to myself.
I love you.
And I don’t know how you feel, it will likely be a while before you say these words to me, and therefore a while before I say them to you.
But right here, right now, after you’ve spent the night talking with my family, joking with them and being your wonderfully amazing self, I know in my heart that I truly love you.
As of May 27th, I love you.
Now I need to go to sleep so I can wake up and get ready to spend the day with your family today.
Then supposedly you’re taking me somewhere nice, though you won’t tell me where because you want it to be a surprise.
Hopefully its nice out so we can actually go do that, because I’ve never had anyone plan a surprise like this for me.
It’s perfect, being with you.
You make me smile no matter what you do.
I can’t wait to see you later, honey.
I love you, and I hope you’ll let me continue loving you for a very long time.
Prepare for all the emotions.
At 7 am you randomly asked if you could come visit me today.
You drove 2 hours here in the pouring rain just to spend a few hours with me.
And you officially asked me to be your girlfriend.
May 1st 2012.
5 days until my birthday.
And I can already tell you this made my week.
Now you’re on your 2 hour trip home.
And I already miss you.
I am so happy to officially be with you baby.
I enjoyed every second you were here.
I can’t wait to be home soon so I can see you all the time.
You are honestly just the cutest and I can’t even begin to explain how happy you make me.
When you were in the parking lot waiting for me to get out of class you texted me this:
“Oh where is my Tasha?
Oh where is my Tasha?
Oh where, oh where, oh whereeee………is my Tasha?”
And I don’t even know why but that made me squeal when I got out of class and read it.
Literally the cutest.
I don’t even know what to do with myself now.
I hope you know you just completely spoiled me by coming to visit me.
I’m going to go take a nap and just dream about you being here.
Today was actually perfect.
Thank you for making the beginning of my finals week bearable.
I miss you, hun.
So, baby, here I sit in my class, wishing I could see your face and feel your arms around me.
It’s killing me to know I get to see you in less than 3 days, and I’ll have you all to myself for 48 hours.
This week has been dragging on so slowly.
With every passing second I get closer to you.
My heart is already home with you.
I feel like people might be thinking we’re rushing into this.
We’ve not known each other very long, and we’re already talking long term.
But I meant what I said this morning when I told you I’d love to wake up to your face every morning.
And I meant what I said last night when I told you you light up my world like no one else.
I can see us together for a very long time.
We have very similar mind sets when it comes to relationships, and I think we go together very well.
So honestly I don’t care what anyone thinks.
I don’t care if they think we’re moving too fast, or if they think we shouldn’t be talking about being long term yet.
I know we aren’t even official yet, though I’m hoping that will happen soon.
But I can honestly see this lasting.
I know I’ve said this countless times, but you’re everything I’ve always wanted.
I can’t help but feel like I was meant to meet you.
Again, I’m not going to say that I’m sure this will last forever.
Because there is absolutely no way to tell that right now.
We’ve still got much to learn about each other.
But we’ve got so much time to learn these things.
And I am looking forward to every second I get to spend with you,
and every new fact about you I will discover,
and every new experience we’ll share.
I don’t care if we’re moving quickly.
As long as we end up where we both want to be, why does it matter how we get there?
You make me so very happy.
My heart beats faster at the very thought of you.
I hope I make you feel even slightly similar to how I feel when I’m around you.
ok huge pile of mush coming up, there is literally no reason anyone needs to read this, just ignore me, my emotions are a bit haywire.
This text message made my morning more than you could ever even imagine.
God I miss you.
I get to be with you in 3 days.
And I am counting down the minutes.
omg someone stop me.
i’m being mushy and cute.
ugh ugh ugh.
#But he’s so wonderful #and I smile every time I get a text #and ugh he’s just so wonderful #did I mention he’s wonderful? #yeah
This is my general reaction to our conversation right now.
You’re brighter than sunshine to me, hun <3
You light up my world like nothing else can.
Ok, here’s the first post in real time. I’m all caught up to everything I’ve already blogged.
Now I’ll start to simply update this blog.
My first post is fairly long. Please bear with me.
I don’t know what I’m doing really right now.
I am honestly falling for you so quickly.
It’s actually kind of frightening.
Because everyone has been telling me to take my time, and casually date, and date more people, etc.
But no one knows how I work.
I’m not like that.
I can’t date more than one person at a time.
I like affection.
The kind where you’re with someone and you’re the only one for them and they’re the only one for you.
And I’m not going to say yet that we should get married someday.
Because jesus christ that would be ridiculous.
We’ve been dating for a month, sleeping together for two.
Thats not enough time to say its definitely going to last forever.
But what I will say is who knows what will happen?
Have you ever heard the term “yellow bird”?
It’s used to describe the one person who belongs in your life.
“a person’s true love; the one person they are both externally and internally, both consciously and subconsciously attached to with the realization that those feelings will never die; the one person that they know they can’t live without ”
I don’t know if your my yellow bird yet.
But right now I’m happy.
And I want to be with you for a very long time.
And if you are my yellow bird
I’m really glad you showed up in my life.
Because so far, baby, you’re everything I’ve been wanting for a long time.
Maybe you’re my yellow bird.
But for right now it’s enough to just know that you’re mine.
You’re my bird (pun intended).
We’ll just have to figure out your color later.
I wrote this very very long post on March 16th.
It is all about emotions, not just mine, but all of them.
Emotions as their own category.
I am only adding it to this blog because the last two sections are about you.
You can read the whole thing or skip to the end, I won’t be offended :)
But I thought this should be included because it takes about how I’m dealing with my emotions for you, and how I’m handling this new situation we have.
I’m loving every second of it.
#ok here’s the thing #you have officially started calling me hun almost every time you talk to me #we had the conversation about meeting each others’ parents #we spend almost every possible second together when I’m home #but we aren’t using the words ‘boyfriend’ and ‘girlfriend’…? #I’m just confused as to what actually constitutes a relationship if this isn’t it #because i don’t know how to go about this #but in my eyes we’re together #we’re making plans for this summer #to go strawberry picking #and other cute shit #and basically spend a lot of time together #we’re talking about how I’ll spend nights with you when you move to Lowell #and I’m like wait #how far into the future is that going to be #probably a while #and you’re already planning on still being with me at that point #and I like that #because why waste my time with you if you’re only wanting to be with me for a really short term #thats not how i work #so I don’t mind mention of the future #but I guess I’m confused #because if you’re planning on being with me long term #and we’re acting like we are #and we’re exclusive - you said so yourself #then why don’t we just label it? #we’re in a relationship #just admit it
This was April 16th.
Later this day you asked me “when we’re official, how long do you see us going?”
And we agreed that we both can see this lasting a very long time.
Yet we’re still not official yet.
And I’m not complaining at all.
I can wait for you to be ready, I really can.
There is no rush in my book.
I just already think of you as mine because I like you so much and you’ve even said we’re exclusive.
But I can wait as long as you need to.
Because I truly care about you so much <3
#dear sweet jesus christ almighty #i am absolutely dying #these texts #there are chills running up and down my body #why am i so far away #in 5 days i get to experience these things we’re writing #but oh my god in the meantime i need to find some time alone #like immediately #if not sooner
This was Sunday night. April 15th.
I had just seen you that morning.
And that night we sent these text messages.
And they made me want you more than anything in the world.
Like I’ve said in a past post,
I can’t get enough of you.