I’m sitting here today in my stupor of exhaustion mixed with ultra-caffeinated beverages, and I’m simply thinking about where we’re at right now.
I’m looking back on our experiences together, specifically last weekend, and how we interact, and here are some things I’ve noticed about how we are:
Now, I’m not sure if the last one is happening because we aren’t official yet, or if we aren’t official yet because of the awkward motions of this action.
Either way, I can’t wait until these awkward hellos end.
I see you and I don’t want to come across as clingy or needy and scare you off, so I wait for you to initiate any affectionate actions.
But when I see you all I can think about is how much I have missed you and how badly I want to hold your hand, or kiss your lips, or be held in your arms.
Now I’m not trying to beg for an official relationship status. I’m not trying to push you into anything, and I really, truly do not mind where we’re at and how it’s going. I’m happy just to have you in my life, whether I can call you my “boyfriend” or not right now. I just want that to be clear. I’m not unhappy with the way things are going.
But I am also excited to someday be able to call this official.
I’m excited to call you mine.
I’m excited to be yours.
And I’m excited for you to be ready for this too.
Because I like you so much, and you even said you can see us lasting a long time.
Well I’m excited to start that time with you.
And I’m excited to see where it goes.